The Truth About The Truth

The truth about the truth is... that you can make your own truth. You can live in your own bubble and feed yourself information and listen to things that make you feel good, and that will be your truth. My truth and your truth could be polar opposites of each other, or they could be spot on. Truthfully, we'll never know.

We all have our secrets, even the little dirty ones that we pick and choose who we tell them to, or if we tell anybody at all. I'm usually an open book, as long as I'm sharing positive truths about myself. It's the nitty gritty, live and learn truths that I'm not too quick to share with my next door neighbor or the guy behind me at Church.

My boyfriend Chris came to visit over the weekend. Considering our relationship is long distance, we've had plenty of practice with learning each other's style of communication. Usually all we have to express ourselves are our cell phones and skype, so being as open and honest as possible is incredibly necessary. I've approached this relationship differently than I have than those that came before it. As hard as it has been at times to divulge undesirable facts about my past with Chris, I feel like I've become closer to him than any other previous relationship.

I think this openness and honesty stems from my forgiveness through Jesus. Being able to say "yeah God, I did some pretty messed up stuff in my life, and I'm sorry" has allowed me to also express those in my relationship. Sharing my story and being able to use that as my testimony and a foundation of what makes me who I am today.

While not easy, I've been able to share with Chris things that I haven't shared with anybody, ever. Things that only God was privy too. I think the best part about being able to say anything, is knowing I won't be judged. Instead I'll get a hug, or a kiss, or that look of "I still love you anyway."

This was sent in an email to me last night, and it made me feel incredibly lucky "He (God) helped me find you the first time so I have faith that he'll help me find you again and again and again and again..."

I love him. Yep, I do!