Time to kill

I don't think that I have been able to sit still long enough to write a complete blog entry, let alone think of anything worth blogging about. The only things going on in my life right now is a BUNCH of traveling, and a blooming relationship of some sort.

This month in particular has been incredibly draining both emotionally and financially. It's a difficult time when all of your friends are having birthdays, babies and weddings all within a month of each other. Especially when it's all the month before your missions trip. I'll get two steps forward and four steps back it seems and the only answer to my predicament is God. At first I thought it all hung in the balance with the promotion and raise I'm scheduled to receive in February 2012. But in thinking about it, I know God will provide, for my spiritual and physical needs. So what if I have to survive off of peanut butter & jelly and spaghetti for the next 9 months, I happen to like those two very much (just not at the same time.)

I sit here now with my eyes closed about to dose off for the evening... it's only 8:45 p.m. Whenever I try to read before bed, my eyes are too exhausted to stay open. I think I make myself seem busier than I actually am, a way of making myself feel important? Probably. I really need a vacation. Flying back to Michigan next weekend for my cousin's wedding and then a week later I leave for Haiti for two weeks. Following my trip to Haiti is a week long endeavor to Wyoming to visit my sister and brother-in-law and some friends from college.

Now that I re-read what I wrote above, it's all gibberish and none of it is of any real importance. It's okay, I had time to kill.